Blog #13

I have done a lot of things that I have regretted. But the one thing I regret is probably breaking up with my boyfriend of almost 2 years. We've been best friends since second grade and we've like each other since fifth. He moved away freshmen year of high school and then came back and we immediately hit it off. But things have been so frustrating with my parents that it had literally put a strain on our relationship to where neither one of us could handle the stress anymore. I decided that I needed to call it quits for a little while before both of us tore each other to shreds because a day hasn't gone by where we haven't had a fight. I love him to death and I didn't want to do it. We're still gonna be good friends but things are going to change and it's going to be different but hopefully everything will turn out for the good in the end because we always seem to get back with each other even after so many years.
I wish I could take back everything and go back to the way things were because both of us are hurting. But maybe this is just God's way of healing our hearts.

Blog #12

I think it is possible to love someone who doesn't care about you. Romantically, when a couple gets divorced, though their not married anymore, one spouse may still be in love with the other even though the other one doesn't care. In a case where a child is neglected or abused, they still love their parents and will do anything to please them or even get a simple, "I love you" from the parent who doesn't seem to even care if their alive. And then there is always a time when a guy falls in love with a girl but the girl could care less if he even exists, or vice versa.

Blog # 11

A time when the joke was on me was during track season. I was on my way home from a meet in Bowling Green when I got a call from my boyfriend, or at least the call was from his phone. His best friend had called me and told me that there was an accident. He said that they were playing basketball and someone had knocked him down and stepped on his leg and that therefore he had broken his leg. And me being as bright as I am believed him. Now I'm an hour and half away and freaking out on the bus ride home because I couldn't be with him. Then his best friend said he had to go and hung up on me. So there I am on the bus helpless talking to one of my close friends when a couple minutes later I get a call back telling me they were just kidding and I hung up my phone. So yeah the joke was on me and I haven't fallen for one since.

Blog #10

"The love of money is the root of all evil," the Bible tells us. Everyone desires to have money and lots of it. It influences human behavior because to have things that you want you have to have money to buy them. For example, if you want to buy a house you have to have money to put a down payment on it and then you have to gradually pay for it in monthly bills. If you don't have money to pay for the house, then the bank could foreclose on you and you could loose your house. Situations like greed is when the desire for money can be harmful.Being greedy shows that you only care about yourself and you can get in a lot of trouble depending on what you do. For example, gambling...enough said. When the desire seems normal or legitimate to me is when you take the money you earn, and instead of spending it on yourself, you donate it to a good cause like a local charity or church that is in need of it more than you are. You don't have to have a lot of money to have nice things.

Blog #9

When I first started running my coach use to tell me what you put into running is what you'll get out of it. So in runners terms the more you practice the faster you'll get. A lot of people have said things to me that have impacted my life but that one has made the biggest impact on me personally. I never believed him because I figured he was just saying it to be saying it because he tends to do that a lot, but the more I got into running the more I realized that it's the truth. It's kind of like what this pastor said at church camp, what you put into God is what you'll get out of him.

Blog #8

A time of failure in my life was probably when I didn't make it to the state cross country championship my sophomore year. We didn't make it as a team but my coach told me that I might had made individually, but I had missed it by one place. It bothered me because that one place would have made a difference in how the team scored and it would have given me a ride to state. I wish I could go back and run the race over again because after it was done and over with, I felt like I didn't run as hard as I could have. I felt like I had let my coach and team down and myself. I know my limits and hard I can run, but sometimes what feels hard isn't hard at all and I don't realize it until the end and even then it's too late. I wish I could go back and change the past or even predict the future, but I'm not a superhuman so that's impossible. But maybe me failing that time was setting me up for something even greater.

Blog #7

A "demon" in my own life I face is fear. I fear these three things: not being good enough, letting someone down, and getting my heart broken. As a runner, I'm scared because I'm so competitive and I want to do my best but sometimes what I think is my best isn't. And I wish I could go back and re-run races sometimes. I'm also scared of letting my coach down. I know what he expects out of me and I'm scared that one bad race will put a notion in his head that I'm not good enough or strong enough. I'm also scared of letting my parents down because I try so hard to be the perfect daughter but sometimes thats not enough. And I'm scared of giving my heart away because I'm scared someone will leave me heart broken in the end. I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now but I'm scared that one wrong move and it will all end because we've been through so much together and I don't know what I would do without him.

Blog #6

I have never been as scared as the time when I almost lost my dad. My dad was in a car accident back in January and was lucky to have survived. His truck flipped 3 times and he walked away from the accident with no injuries, which was a miracle in itself. You never realize how much you love someone until you almost loose them, and I can't imagine my life without him. Since the accident, I have grown closer to him and I thank God that he gave our relationship a second chance.

Blog #2

A hero is someone who makes a difference in your life. Someone who you see on a daily basis and who you trust with your life. A hero is there for you no matter what situation you are in. They encourage you every step of the way even when your dreams seem too big to reach. They are inspirational and should spiritually lead you in life. They inspire you to become the person God meant for you to be.

Blog #3

I use to think that life was unfair. I use to think that I was a failure because whenever I tried to be perfect something always went wrong. I use to think that the whole world was against me because when everything seemed to be going right something would always go wrong. Whenever things went wrong, I felt like my whole world was coming to an end. But it was then that I realized that everything happens for a reason and that it's all part of God's plan for our lives.

Blog #5

I need to find a place where I can be myself. I need to find a place where friends don't betray friends. A place where every thing goes my way, and no one judges other people. I need to find a place where people accept me for who I am and where perfection isn't a necessity. Where every thing is a team effort and doesn't rely on one individual person.

Blog #4

I actually dream of being a normal teenage girl. I literally go to school, then practice, and then come home. I'm not the type of girl that is allowed out on Friday nights and who can spend all Saturday hanging out with friends. My weekends usually consist of practices or races and then church and homework. If I want to do anything, I can't ask the day of or the day before. I have to give at least a week notice. I can't just hop in my car and go anywhere I want to with whoever. I wish I could have the life my friends have but I know I can't so it doesn't hurt to dream.

Blog #1

As a senior, I see myself as becoming my own independent person who will soon be graduating at the end of May. Senior year has just begun and I'm still getting use to the fact that my high school career is coming to an end. As a senior, I see myself becoming a young woman of faith who is attempting to survive my senior year of cross country. I see myself maturing into the adult that God has intended for me. And I see myself as the girl who her parents are proud to call their daughter.