Blog #7

A "demon" in my own life I face is fear. I fear these three things: not being good enough, letting someone down, and getting my heart broken. As a runner, I'm scared because I'm so competitive and I want to do my best but sometimes what I think is my best isn't. And I wish I could go back and re-run races sometimes. I'm also scared of letting my coach down. I know what he expects out of me and I'm scared that one bad race will put a notion in his head that I'm not good enough or strong enough. I'm also scared of letting my parents down because I try so hard to be the perfect daughter but sometimes thats not enough. And I'm scared of giving my heart away because I'm scared someone will leave me heart broken in the end. I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now but I'm scared that one wrong move and it will all end because we've been through so much together and I don't know what I would do without him.