Blog #9

When I first started running my coach use to tell me what you put into running is what you'll get out of it. So in runners terms the more you practice the faster you'll get. A lot of people have said things to me that have impacted my life but that one has made the biggest impact on me personally. I never believed him because I figured he was just saying it to be saying it because he tends to do that a lot, but the more I got into running the more I realized that it's the truth. It's kind of like what this pastor said at church camp, what you put into God is what you'll get out of him.

Blog #8

A time of failure in my life was probably when I didn't make it to the state cross country championship my sophomore year. We didn't make it as a team but my coach told me that I might had made individually, but I had missed it by one place. It bothered me because that one place would have made a difference in how the team scored and it would have given me a ride to state. I wish I could go back and run the race over again because after it was done and over with, I felt like I didn't run as hard as I could have. I felt like I had let my coach and team down and myself. I know my limits and hard I can run, but sometimes what feels hard isn't hard at all and I don't realize it until the end and even then it's too late. I wish I could go back and change the past or even predict the future, but I'm not a superhuman so that's impossible. But maybe me failing that time was setting me up for something even greater.

Blog #7

A "demon" in my own life I face is fear. I fear these three things: not being good enough, letting someone down, and getting my heart broken. As a runner, I'm scared because I'm so competitive and I want to do my best but sometimes what I think is my best isn't. And I wish I could go back and re-run races sometimes. I'm also scared of letting my coach down. I know what he expects out of me and I'm scared that one bad race will put a notion in his head that I'm not good enough or strong enough. I'm also scared of letting my parents down because I try so hard to be the perfect daughter but sometimes thats not enough. And I'm scared of giving my heart away because I'm scared someone will leave me heart broken in the end. I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now but I'm scared that one wrong move and it will all end because we've been through so much together and I don't know what I would do without him.

Blog #6

I have never been as scared as the time when I almost lost my dad. My dad was in a car accident back in January and was lucky to have survived. His truck flipped 3 times and he walked away from the accident with no injuries, which was a miracle in itself. You never realize how much you love someone until you almost loose them, and I can't imagine my life without him. Since the accident, I have grown closer to him and I thank God that he gave our relationship a second chance.