Blog D: Thoughts

At first when reading Frankenstein, I wasn't interested at all because I wasn't use to reading novels like it. And being in an accelerated class it was difficult for me to just actually read the book and not have to analyze it. But now as I continue to read the book, I'm analyzing every detail in my head and with discussion I can fully comprehend what is going on in the story and so I'm starting to grow fond of it. It's not my favorite book because I can't get into it like I can others but it is getting interesting and at least I can pass the quizzes.

Blog C: Monsters

Jealousy is most definitely a monster that I have created in my life. I don't like to own up to it so I've gotten pretty good at hiding it around certain people. Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that I do not value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than me. There is only one alternative - self-value. If I cannot love myself, I will not believe that I am loved. I will always think it's a mistake or luck. I need to take my eyes off others and turn the scanner within. I need to find the seeds of my jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building my personal and emotional security. Then I will be the one others envy, and I can remember the pain and reach out to them.
Another Monster in my life is failure. If I feel like I have let someone down then I have failed them and then I just get really moody which can affect everyone else around me. "Life is to be lived not avoided. Life is to build upon those failures that everyone has so the same mistakes are not made again. To fail is to be human, but to continue to fail without learning from past actions is to let circumstances control you. You are your own person. No one can take away from you unless you let them. Be true to yourself and keep nourishing all those things that are good and virtuous and shun those that belittle and hurt."

Blog B: Dreams/Ambitions

I really badly want to get under twelve minutes in the two mile and go to state for the first time in track. Last year I missed state by eight seconds and I won't make that mistake again. I want to run in college and be one of the top in the state or possibly even the nation. I want to graduate college and land the job of my dreams which is to teach a high school health/p.e. class and to coach cross country. But on the side I also want to work with special needs kids and horses. I have this passion that I can't explain when I volunteer at Dream Riders and I want to continue volunteering there even as I have a career. And of course every girls dream is to get married to their true love and have kids...but I refuse to get married until after I graduate college and have a career:)